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Adam Levine So, this image was part of my prompt for my Love is Always Write story. The other part was: “I’d love to hear the story about this man, and why he has so many tattoos. Are they from creating memories with his lover? Does he have a lover? I’d love to hear a bit about his story, and how he ended up posing for this picture. Who’s hands are hiding the rest of him from view?

(I’d love to see turtleshell bondage in this, but no pain, or a slave-master type relationship…maybe coworkers to friends to lovers or something like that?) “

I took some liberties with the prompt, as one does, but I’m pretty pleased with how it came out. You have to join Goodreads and then the m/m group in order to read it, but it is free. To whet your appetite…

His name wasn’t Feral. It couldn’t be. That wasn’t the sort of name that you gave to a child. That was a name someone earned. How he’d earned it, Levi could well imagine.

Levi was a long way from his high rise, from his flat screen, from his douche nozzle friends and the Occupiers who seemed to think anyone gave a shit about them. Silly fools who still believed they lived in any kind of democracy. Perhaps Levi had sold his soul for his place in boardrooms and silk bedrooms, but while money couldn’t buy happiness, it could buy a pretty good facsimile.

Or so he’d thought.

The streets grew darker, seemed slicker in this part of town, as if rain came down and stuck in the gutters. Oil slick. Sweaty. Grime so porous that it never let go.

Levi watched skeletons of buildings, burned out hovels and boarded up future sites of something fabulous and expensive. But for now, the streets belonged to another kind of one percent. A lower percent that only seemed to exist at night.

Levi didn’t have to tell the driver where to go or where to stop. He never even told him to show up. The driver, and by extension, Feral, just knew when it was time for a visit.

Or maybe Feral was only controlling Levi and everyone else simply executed his orders.

Any and all could be true. It didn’t much matter.

The black car stopped. Out of habit, Levi offered the man a tip and received a sneer for his trouble.

Levi let himself out of the car and looked up at the old familiar building. In daylight it should’ve been green and red with strange markings that were Hindi? Kanji? Cyrillic? They could’ve been in Aramaic for all Levi knew.

Every night when he was summoned, he tried to catch the address, tried to recall the building. But he could never find it on his own.

Fat, warm droplets of rain pounded his head and spilled like runny eggs down his face and the back of his neck. He ran forward to the imposing red door. It opened for him as it always did, like it was left unlocked. On a street where even demons feared to tread, leaving an unlocked door was unthinkable. Yet once Levi was inside, he felt no fear.

There were no other residents in the building other than a few rats that clicked and skittered between the walls. Feral lived on the fifth floor regardless.

Patchouli wafted down the stairs as Levi walked up to meet the source. The scent reminded him of the first time he’d met Feral.

Levi was at one of those tiresome clubs that his friends always dragged him to. They well knew that he was gay and yet carried on as if he were supposed find something charming in their misogyny and mistreatment of women. In their minds being gay meant that he should hate women. There was a big difference between a lack of sexual interest and hate, but that was too fine a line for coked-up bond traders to make.

He went along for the free drinks, free drugs, and free blowjobs they all eventually wound up giving him. All-in-all it had seemed satisfying enough. Until that night.

In spite of his long, platinum blond hair and almost unnatural thinness and height, Feral somehow managed to occupy the shadows. Such ethereal beauty seemed more likely to be a ghost or a hallucination, but before long Feral focused on him.

His eyes were black like they were all pupil. He wore long, dark purple robes that night and smiled curiously when Levi sat beside him at the dark corner of the bar.

Somehow Feral’s low, whispery voice penetrated the shouted conversations and booming bass of the club. Smoke wreathed him in a halo. Even now Levi couldn’t remember agreeing to leave and yet he’d found himself here in this mysterious building, being led by the hand to the top floor.

The boards creaked under Levi’s feet, bringing him back to the present. All the doors in the building were closed save one. Light flickered, unsteady and warm.

Before him on the ground were a cushion, a small basket filled with untreated hemp rope, and a single candle.

Feral never gave orders. He never gave ultimatums. He simply laid a task out for Levi to complete.

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Let me say right now that I have not read Fifty Shades of Grey. I’m actually unlikely to read it because I have a very long to read list and that’s not really my thing. But never say never.

So why have I been following this trend? Other than being incredibly, seethingly, almost paralyzingly jealous of someone making that big of a hit in the erotic world, why bother? I don’t have an answer for that. It is interesting that something so genre is making such a big splash. It does shine a light in an area that may benefit everyone.

Anyway, it is my habit to watch the Today Show every morning and they had an interview with the author. She seemed very down-to-earth, just another author with a ready laugh and just about as mystified as anyone as to why this was all happening. Then she said it. She basically said she wasn’t really a writer.

This struck me as funny because while she may not have studied to write, or intended to write, or be the best writer evah, she sat down and wrote something, start to finish. Not everyone does that. Not everyone can do that. I know a lot of English majors who just can’t close the deal and finish a book. Maybe their phrasing is more elegant or their use of the language more mature, but not everyone loves literary fiction.

That’s the other thing that’s struck me. Twilight isn’t known for its awesome use of the language, either. As I see other authors fighting over bad cliches and other minor foibles of grammar, by and large, people don’t seem to care that much. This isn’t to say that we should all write poorly, but when I read someone talking about screaming over disembodied parts moving on their own, I think, “time for a bath and bowl, man.”

Okay, that was just some quick thoughts after the interview. Back to chapter 8 of the Black Gold sequel!

So I’m seeing these awesome announcements from gifted writers who not only managed to put out a book, but had the courage to enter them into contests.

I have some of these contests in my bookmarks, but when push comes to shove, I chicken out. I don’t know, maybe I just feel lucky to be published and don’t want to push it.

I have some vague philosophical notions of finding art and competition a poor mix, but in my heart of hearts I know that mostly I lack the intestinal fortitude to put myself out there like that. So how do you? Is it confidence in your work, or just a ‘what they heck, why not?’ or a combination?

Or is it from a fiercely competitive spirit?

I admit, I lack the competitive spirit. I remember the day I lost it, too. I used to play basketball and really enjoyed it. It was exciting, there was a lot of movement and strategy. But then, one day, I was running up and down the court. Back and forth. Back and forth. And then I just planted on one side of the court and thought, “they’ll be back. I’ll just hang out here.”

And that was the end of it. Once you decide that chasing the ball isn’t actually fun and that when everyone returns from running up and down the court, they’ll be more tired than you are, the game is over. Because after that, you think, “What is it, a ball? I don’t care about that ball. It’s not even a particularly attractive ball, and you don’t get to keep it.”

Now, replace that ball with the Marc Jacobs handbag I’ve been eying and you’ll see some competitive spirit. You know, until the bag goes on sale and I can afford it. Plus, bags are hard to dribble.

I’m off on a tangent. And I kind of want to go shopping.

Anyway, there is a competition I’m wanting to enter and I’m trying to screw up the courage to do it. Any words of advice would be appreciated.

Or a handbag. I’d like a handbag.

Hello. I’m Clancy Nacht and I’m an overcommitment addict.

(hello)

See, for a long time I wasn’t feeling very motivated to write things. You know how it is, you just left fandom, you want to tackle original stuff, but suddenly you have to deal with new voices, a new world, new situations. You’ve gone from a very controlled universe to Anything You Want.

It’s big. Too big. You don’t know where to start. So, you hit Duotrope.

And sure, it’s great for tracking your submissions, for knowing when things are due, when to follow up with a publisher. But it also lists calls for submissions. You read through one, and you’re inspired. you write it up, edit it, send it off, it’s accepted. Win! It’s such an exciting, euphoric feeling, like you not only got inspired, but you actually got someone to agree to not only read your non-fandom work, but also to urge others to read it as well.

That’s how they hook you.

You see, it started off small with a few short stories, but it’s grown into an untamable beast of WIPs, stories in revision, stories that are sent out, stories that you sent out and you’re editing. Folders upon folders of drafts, outlines, notes, research, but too little time to focus.

And that’s when it sets in. The block.

It’s not for lack of knowing where to go. You have these stories outlined. The research is done. Characters are named, their quirks documented. All you have to do is sit down and do it.

But then, where to start? Is it that WIP that you’re 20k into that you decided needed at least another 20k to feel complete? Is it that new story you just got all hot and bothered for, but isn’t due for a few months? Or do you go for some easy wins with anthos that you know you could knock out in a few hours?

I don’t know. That’s my problem. I don’t know when to stop. I try. Believe me, I’ve tried. I don’t even log into Duotrope anymore. I trash their weekly emails, not even looking for new calls for submission.

But then, there are more. Twitter wants attention, I should be blogging, too. Oh and that chat, you need to be witty in chat. And what about those lovely authors that comment on your blog? You really need to go read their blogs and comment.

Too much. And all of it things I want to be doing.

But that’s why I’m here. Because I don’t know how to stop. Or where to start.

Surely I’m not the only one. What about you? Start to finish WIP and bugger the rest of it? Keep nipping at each story, calling it progress each time?

Anyway, I’ve recognized that I need help and that’s why I’m here. Thank you.

(wasn’t that brave?)

I found out that there was a “living history park” not far from where I live. Unfortunately, the day I went, history was not coming alive. Only a couple of the houses were manned by people. Wasps—and I’m talking wasps as big as your hand—were out in full force.

Plantation House

It was in the upper 90s and a lot of the trail was directly in the sun. So it was pretty darn hot. But that in itself says a lot about the area and the kind of work that people were doing out in that kind of weather.

Outbuilding stove

I think the photos turned out well. The yellow house is the plantation house, which is right about the size I was hoping for. There are out buildings for not only the out house, but the kitchen, the loom/weaving area. And, of course, the well. Something out there bit my toe and I had to sit down for a few and rub the ouchie. A wasp kept buzzing me and eventually landed on my husband’s sleeve. Brave girl that I am, I ran away and let him deal with it.

Barn and Equipment

The barn is more of an immigrant barn, but it had some of the tools of the trade I thought were important.

Beautiful Tree
We checked out the Native American area, but there really wasn’t a lot there. I did fall in love with that giant tree and took many shots of it. I think that tree will make appearances in many stories.

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I’m currently doing some research for a new novel/novella I’m writing. I actually started this story from a dream I had, but as all dreams need, there are details that have to be nailed down, hammered out, and otherwise put in their place.

As this is a historical story that I’m pretty sure will be antebellum South, I’m reading about plantations and slaves. No, it’s not a slave story. But it’s part of the life of a planter and they will figure into the plot at some stage, so I’m pawing through some fairly depressing history.

Back when I was 12 I was one of a few students that represented our school in a Texas history competition. This wasn’t because I’m so damn smart as much as my a fairly gossipy Texas history teacher who told great stories got me hooked and the rest of it just stuck. It’s the stories that are interesting, not the dates. At least, to me. And sort of the story of how we are here. Why there are so many damn German towns in Texas, things like that.

What I also discovered were a number of historical houses and tours right here in Austin. There’s even a historical reenactment place not far from my home. History is so much more interesting when you can touch it. Anyway, that’s what I’m currently up to.

Also, I’m going to fire a gun. I know, right? I live in Texas and don’t own a gun or a horse. Actually I did shoot a gun before and rode a few horses, both of which I chalk up to a misspent youth. Now I have to do it alllll over again. Once more, with feeling.

I keep missing the Humpday Hunks by either finding pictures preemptively that I feel I have to post Right Now or remembering photos I loved too late.

This particular photo is all sorts of love to me, not only because it’s beautifully shot, but it was actually taken by Monday Manmeat Jonas Kesseler from L’etat c’est moi. There’s just something sexy about actors turned directors and models turned photographers.

And who is that in there? Why it’s Paul Boche, who I have declared love for before with Marcel Castenmiller who I have not publicly acknowledged adoration for here, but I guarantee that even before I saw his cute Model Diary, I was enchanted by him on the runway.

What they are doing here, exactly, I can only speculate. I’m not sure if Paul is angry or if this is the start of some erotic asphyxiation. I’m good either way, really. But, as a public service, I would like to remind the boys and any readers that as we learned from David Carradine and Micheal Hutchence (and others), erotic asphyxiation is definitely a sport in which you need a spotter, which they appear to have in Jonas. Good job, boys.

So I’m trying out a new look for the site. This is the third time I’ve redone things but they’re all free templates, which is what I’m dealing with until I get bored and do something extravagant.

This is a photo I shot at Fulsom Fair, which makes the t-shirt the bleached blond is wearing about thanking you’re lucky stars that you’re in Texas even funnier to me. That I would later write so much about a pale blond boy wasn’t even in a glimmer in my eye at the time.

The fair, as I recall, was hot. I have lots of pictures of leather daddies hanging out in the streets, swearing, drinking Coke. At the time, I was really into photography and I was meeting a photographer there to chat a little and just soak in the San Francisco experience since I’d never been there.

What impressed me the most weren’t the drag queens or men and women openly showing their love for each other, but the Thai street vendors. Thai food. In the streets. Down here you get funnel cakes and deep fried butter (no really.) Anyway, I don’t remember exactly what I was wearing out there, but it was something goth, fetishy and hot (as in it was 90 degrees and I was melting) so we hoofed it to a bar and people-watched. Good times. I thought it would be fun to have on my blog for as long as this design lasts.

I know it’s traditionally humpday hunk, but this really couldn’t wait. Jonas Kesseler is not only a top male model, ruling the catwalks this season, but is a hipster artist himself. As much as I hate to objectify people (or not) this photo and Kesseler himself is not just hot, but hawt.

Jonas Kesseler

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photographer: Bell Soto
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